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Eros Maddox [ Inactive Character ]
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Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #15 on: February 02, 2017, 07:50:21 PM »
Eros watched as Alex emerged back from kitchen with two glasses in his hands. He silently took the one with water from Alex and downed it like a shot of alcohol. He then put it empty on table and gave a short smile to Alex as thanks. He couldn't help but yawn, stretching his arms above his head. His top happened to show off some of his toned abs, Eros didn't even notice it so didn't bother with putting the cloth back in place. He stared on the opposite wall, lost deep in thoughts. "It must feel nice you know," he spoke up after a while, "to have a family and all." He looked at Alex with a slightly saddened gaze, his fingers playing with his waist belt to occupy themselves. His mind was hazed and wanted to talk yet at the same time he was afraid to. He knew he shouldn't but he couldn't really think of the reason why suddenly. His frown only deepened as he tried to remember. As he tried to think of the reason why he should stay quiet.

There was none. So he opened his mouth and spoke up. "My mom," he was a bit hesitating and casted a drunken gaze at Alex first, before really continuing, "I don't know her." That was really smooth Eros, seriously real smooth, he told himself. "I don't even know how does she look like or what's her name. How does she smell or how her smile looks like." He kept watching this spot on the floor that looked so bloody lonely. Just as he was. "It's the same with my dad. I've never met them. All I know is that my mother signed up some bloody paper and gave me up to some family right after birth. I didn't really know they weren't my real family until my oh-so-perfect sister Jane made sure I know I had no place in their family. She hated me for taking her place, for he fact her own mother spent more time with me than her. She made sure to make my life living hell from then on. She was eleven at that time. And it was precisely because I was different. Because I wasn't a normal muggle I did the things to her. Like shove her out of swing without even touching her, when she didn't let me have it. She broke her leg and blamed the whole incident on me. That's how it always went you know. She and the accidents that always seemed to happen around me were the reason I ended up in the orphanage. For the first time that is." He snorted bitterly and looked at Alex again briefly.

The fact that he was sitting so far away from Eros was slowly driving him crazy. Why was he so far away from him? Was it because he finally felt fed up with him? No one ever before stayed around, not long enough to put up with him, when he started to be awful - his own self. He wouldn't be surprised, if Alex felt the same as others. He was already shocked by his earlier behavior and maybe was a bit hoping - he really wished that Alex would want to stay. Or was that all just an illusion? Was it why he suddenly felt so far away? Untouchable? It was almost like there was a solid big wall between himself and the younger man. He wanted to break it, make it fall down. He moved a bit closer, biting down on his lip, staring at the man. He wanted to move even closer but he didn't dare. He just silently watched the space between them, frowning at it. He wanted Alex to move closer to him. He wanted to have him close right now, but wanted him to do so himself. So Eros would know he wanted the closeness.

Which he probably didn't. Not that he blamed him.

But he couldn't focus on anything else, while doing nothing. So he decided to continue the talking. It was easier than destroying the wall between them. "I didn't stay at the orphanage for long the first time but I was even shorter time with the second family before they got rid of me." He shrugged. "I can't even remember them much, really. Just that they were real strict which is the reason I was out so soon." He wanted to drink something. It was a habit of his, when he didn't know how to continue. "I - went to the last one after year and -" He paused and nibbled on his lower lip. He could feel his own heartbeat rise up but this time it wasn't because of Alex. It was because all the bad memories came falling down on him after he locked them deep inside him. They were now surging into the light, hurting his broken heart over again.

His fingers were starting to shake.

Badly.

Alex Regan [ Inactive Character ]
110 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by Emily
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #16 on: February 11, 2017, 07:42:35 AM »
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Eros Maddox [ Inactive Character ]
97 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by LWINEAH
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #17 on: February 16, 2017, 09:07:13 PM »
Eros was very deep in his own mind, drowned in memories that he suddenly was remembering, when Alex slid along the couch next to him. He flinched at the first contact of their knees, coming back to reality, and his head snapped to the side. His eyes were looking at Alex, wide, and filled with unexpected amount of fear. The look of horror was for a second carved in the two-colored orbs with such intensity, looking right through Alex. It was clear at that moment there still were bleeding wounds on his heart even though the ones on his body were long time gone. Maybe even deeper ones he ever got to taste from David.

The beast hunter snapped back, when he felt Alex's hand wrap around his own trembling. His heartbeat skyrocketed even more in that moment, from one simple reason. Alex himself. Eros suddenly noted that the younger man was here beside him, holding his hands, looking at him. It wasn't David, just Alex. Not just. In this moment he was very easily his saving grace. Someone who didn't let him slip inside the hell that his mind deep down was. However, it still wasn't okay. He took a deep breath, looking at the other. He knew he needed to say this, to get this off his chest. He couldn't hold it in anymore. "The last family," he started, "my step-father David came from prison later after I was adopted. He beaten me up for years almost every day. If no one came with the letter from Hogwarts I would've been there even now probably." He sighed, his hands still slightly shaking, even if it was already a bit better. He let his head fall on Alex's shoulder hesitantly, acting a bit shy. "Sorry to bother you with this." He said, feeling also small and vulnerable.

There was a long pause from his side after that, while he took in the other's closeness, relaxing slowly.

"I wanna go sleep." He then whispered softly.

Alex Regan [ Inactive Character ]
110 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by Emily
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #18 on: February 16, 2017, 09:38:34 PM »
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Eros Maddox [ Inactive Character ]
97 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by LWINEAH
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #19 on: February 17, 2017, 10:23:41 AM »
Eros closed his eyes contently as Alex placed his chin on his head. He couldn't help himself and snuggled into the other a bit, feeling immensely grateful towards him. His nose then grazed the younger male's skin on neck, shortly after that switching for his lips that were then placed on Alex's Adams apple. He kissed his way up to his jaw slowly, sucking on few places. "Thank you." He mumbled lowly. It were just two simple words but very sincere this time. His chest felt lighter after getting off the weight that was there for so many years. It was only a small part of him that believed that things could maybe get better, that he should stop drowning in his past and that he will stand up - but even the small part was a big step on his side. 

"And I'd love to share your bed." He breathed out with a chuckle. "But I have to warn you I tend to be clingy and cuddly." He teased, smiling drunkenly despite the fact his hands were still shaking slightly. "And I tend to get horny too." He then added some fuel to the already blazing fire.

Alex Regan [ Inactive Character ]
110 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by Emily
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #20 on: February 17, 2017, 11:13:22 AM »
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Eros Maddox [ Inactive Character ]
97 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by LWINEAH
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #21 on: February 17, 2017, 11:49:25 AM »
Eros followed after Alex. He trailed closely behind him, very close, probably too close. He briefly looked around the bedroom, happily noting it was clean. He wouldn't sleep in a messy room, never in his life. If the room happened to be dirty then he would most likely first cleaned up and only then he would be able to fall asleep between the covers. But this was a nice surprise, so Eros took few steps away from Alex, taking off his top cloth since seeping dressed wasn't comfortable for him.

He opened his belt, then trousers and slipped out of them, staying only in his underwear. He looked at Alex briefly, confused by why he stayed in his clothes. Maybe he just wasn't comfortable being almost naked around him, he thought. Or he liked to sleep dressed. He kinda hoped it was the latter.

With a sigh he crawled then under the covers, laying comfortably down. He could feel how tired he was now. But he still watched Alex slip into the bed beside him and switch the light off. That made Eros gulp nervously. Darkness always leaved him only to his own mind and thoughts and that definitely wasn't healthy. So he considered his options for a moment.

In the end he decided to take the risk and half-rolled over, closer to Alex, slipping a hand around the other's waist and pulling him closer. He wouldn't say it aloud but he always slept better, while close to someone. It was the only time he could enjoy a dreamless sleep.

He kissed the other's cheek, neck or whatever it was since he couldn't see it, closing his eyes, slipping into the total darkness almost immediately.

Alex Regan [ Inactive Character ]
110 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by Emily
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #22 on: February 17, 2017, 12:34:22 PM »
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Eros Maddox [ Inactive Character ]
97 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by LWINEAH
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #23 on: February 20, 2017, 09:57:19 AM »
Eros woke up around the time Alex was still in the bathroom. He didn't get up though, just laid there, thinking. His head hurt like hell from the amount of alcohol he had but he remembered everything what had happened the other night. He always remembered no matter how much drinks he had. Sometimes it was a curse. Sometimes it was better to forget. Not this time though, right now he was really glad for knowing every detail of the past evening. He wasn't really sure how he felt about it. Maybe he was a bit ashamed how he acted, he was like a baby and so clingy. Fuck. He loved to be affectionate, he did, but not this way. He kinda felt bad for throwing all of his problems at Alex's head, for spilling them in the first place. He shouldn't have done that. He should have been just cold or flirtatious like always, wearing his everyday mask of everything being okay. He could have had Alex for the night, enjoy a time with him, make the other feel good instead of throwing his intimate life, the disaster it was, at him.

But there was no going back. What was done was done and now he had to work with it. He supposed acting cold wasn't really an option, moreover, he was totally tired of it. He would just act as Eros. The real Eros. Without a fake makeup plastered on his face.

He heard the door open but didn't move yet. Alex steps got closer to him, then the bed dipped down as the younger man sat down. His hand touched Eros' bare back as he spoke up. The beast hunter then took a deep breath, rolling around and gazing with his two-colored eyes at the other. There wasn't the broken expression on his face anymore, no. That was hidden back inside. On the other side, his face wasn't cold either. There was warm in his eyes upon looking at Alex. Eros swung his arm around the other's waist, pulling himself up to sit. "Morning," he said quietly, hesitating a bit since he wasn't really sure, what to do. He didn't really wanted to mention the evening but it was the right thing to do probably. "Thanks for yesterday." He said, leaning a bit closer into Alex's personal space. "And also sorry, I feel a bit bad for spilling that all on you." He confessed. "I could do something for you in exchange if you want." He added.

Alex Regan [ Inactive Character ]
110 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by Emily
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #24 on: February 21, 2017, 07:39:36 AM »
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Eros Maddox [ Inactive Character ]
97 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by LWINEAH
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #25 on: February 21, 2017, 08:54:34 AM »
Eros couldn't really help but groan, letting his head fall on Alex's shoulder. He was feeling so frustrated right now, maybe a bit starved as well. Not for food though. The desire he had from the last night still didn't change which was one of the things the beast hunter could feel almost immediately as the younger male appeared in his presence. Damn. He sighed as he took in the other's answer. It seemed like he has been once again declined, wasn't he? He already tried drunk, being more daring than he usually would but Alex didn't act on it. He didn't really shove him away to give him clear message of 'no', he let him kiss his jaw, let him run his hand up his thigh but didn't act on it any further. That was a bit confusing for Eros. He wasn't really used to getting mixed signals. The fact he still felt a bit nervous and embarrassed, grateful and thousands of other emotions didn't help at all. He didn't have his usual confidence as well. Only his sharp and honest mouth.

"You know, I'm slowly nearing the end of my ideas on how to get you in bed." He confessed. "You keep blowing it up, man. I'm not really good at seducing." He chuckled, looking at Alex. "I think I'm at loss of my words, especially sober now." He said, staring at the younger man then for a while before he spoke up again. "If you don't want me then just say no, I don't want to make even bigger fool of myself than I already did the other night being so bloody clingy." He explained, watching Alex's face with a question in his eyes. "And no I don't need anything from you if you don't want anything from me." He added right after that.
« Last Edit: February 21, 2017, 08:55:26 AM by Lwineah »

Alex Regan [ Inactive Character ]
110 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by Emily
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #26 on: February 21, 2017, 09:22:57 AM »
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Eros Maddox [ Inactive Character ]
97 Posts  •  23  •  Homosexual  •  played by LWINEAH
Re: [sparks] this is where I'll be, so heavenly [eros]
« Reply #27 on: February 23, 2017, 02:35:42 PM »
Eros couldn't help but think back in time, remember the day when Alex showed up in the empty classroom where he was practicing, unsure about himself. Remember the night, how the younger man seemed nervous. He seemed nervous even now around him. Simply quite often. Eros didn't know the reason. Why did he have this kind of impact on the other? Why did Alex got all fidgety or confused or unsure around him?

He couldn't help but feel slightly bad for being so persistent, when the other acted so insecure and fidgety. Trying to seduce the other, take him, when he probably didn't even want to. Moreover, it seemed he wasn't the only one with some kind of issues about himself based on Alex's words. There definitely was a reason about his hesitating, confused answers. Eros only hoped the source of this problem wasn't him. Maybe he should have just ignored his want and leave, would that be better? Would that make Alex more comfortable?

He looked at Alex, words on his tongue, wanting to be pronounced but they didn't have a chance to leave his mouth. There were first hands on his face, then lips pressed against his, hungry and daring. Anything Eros wanted to say in that moment completely slipped out of his mind as he subconsciously pressed closer to the other. He wasn't going to ask why, if he was sure or what kind of problem was lingering inside his head. It wasn't his place to pry.

The feel of Alex's kiss made his desire and hunger emerge fully. A wave of lust, pure want, washed over him strongly. He closed his eyes as the other's lips moved lower, to his jaw, and mummbled breathlessly 'don't apologize', when Alex spoke up. He then moved into the younger male's lap eagerly and kissed him again. He was curious, wanted to find out how much the other learned through the years, how much did he change and if he could still mess him up the way he did that one time before.

But first he needed to get those clothes off.

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