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Winifred Gwartney [ Hufflepuff ]
1065 Posts  •  17  •  played by Rinn
Re: one foot in front of the other. [winifred]
« Reply #15 on: May 18, 2020, 05:39:58 AM »
"Ha ha! Not Sugar & Spice, Lip, you're so funny," Wini told him with extra enthusiasm, trying to compensate for the overwhelming sadness she was currently reeling from. She tried to play it cool. She totally wasn't about to start crying. Nope, nope, nope. She almost felt like the letter in her purse was burning a hole through the bag by how aware she was. She almost wanted to run back and leave it there in her room, but she didn't want William to find it and want to talk about it.

"I looked for Sugar & Spice here, you know," she told her, feeling better when she filled the space between them with chatter. "I haven't seen any sign of it yet, are you sure they were thinking of opening one here?" she asked, looking both ways before they crossed the street and heading down the street toward the Leaky Cauldron.

His knowing question made her falter in her step, her smiling slipping for a moment. She had been almost fine a moment ago when she had just been in her head, convinced that she could ignore the contents of the letter. But now with Lip's question she felt her lip wobbling and tears welling in her eyes. "I don't want to," Wini said quickly, crossing her arms in front of her and walking even faster. And on top of all of that, she felt bad that she couldn't be nice and open when Lip was being so kind to her, but she was having a hard time dealing with all of thoughts whirling around her mind and she thought she might start blubbering here in the streets of London if she told Lip anything about it in this moment.

 

   

Phillip Donnelly [ Ravenclaw ]
298 Posts  •  17  •  .  •  played by Samm
Re: one foot in front of the other. [winifred]
« Reply #16 on: May 18, 2020, 05:46:51 AM »
He half-smiled when she mentioned checking for the Sugar & Spice in Diagon Alley and nodded. "I thought I heard that, glad to know it's not true..." He said sarcastically, still hoping to see regular bubbly Wini behind the smile she was giving him. When he asked the question he saw her face drop, he saw the way her eyes seemed a bit glossier and it pulled at him. He wasn't sure hed ever seen her like this and he did not like it. He wished he was better at being a friend, more like her, so that he could help her but he wasn't.

"Well... okay... I'm here though, if you like, change your mind or anything." He said awkwardly, hands shoving into his pockets even as she picked up the pace toward the Cauldron. In a way Phillip felt relieved she didn't want to talk about it because he knew he wouldn't be able to help her, at least he assumed he'd be no good at it. In reality he was a good listener when it was important, and he'd classify this as that.

Then again, the fact that she didn't want to share whatever pain she was feeling with him was kind of insulting. He'd shared a lot of his baggage with her, he'd even teared up in front of her once --not that they would ever talk about that-- but she couldn't even tell him what was in the letter. He thought she trusted him, but he wondered if he had it wrong all along. Quietly he yanked on the door to the Cauldron as another set of wizards were exiting, they had pushed on the door from the inside at just the right moment and it made him feel off balance.

It wasn't the only thing about today that made him feel that way.

Holding the door open for her Phillip waited, eyes still on her face.

Winifred Gwartney [ Hufflepuff ]
1065 Posts  •  17  •  played by Rinn
Re: one foot in front of the other. [winifred]
« Reply #17 on: May 24, 2020, 05:38:03 AM »
Well... okay... I'm here though, if you like, change your mind or anything. Wini's heart squeezed at how caring Lip was being. He was so kind! And yet, she couldn't quite take him up on the offer. She felt too raw, like if she started telling him, everything that was swirling chaotically inside her would just come tumbling out leaving her empty and she didn't quite know how to handle it. Still, she whispered a "thanks" to him but it was directed at her shoes as she walked a little faster.

She waited as the other wizards exited the Leaky Cauldron, the words in the letter floating in front of her eyes, making her question everything, not realizing that he was holding the door open for her. "Oh, sorry," she murmured as she stepped through hurriedly, flickering her gaze up to his face and then away just as quick. They headed to the back of the pub and Wini tapped on the brick, waiting as the doorway to Diagon opened before them. "C'mon, it's this way," she told him quietly, nodding the way toward the pretzel stand she thought he might like, all the while wondering what she had done for her mum to send a letter like this. Was it because she had decided to stay with William for a few weeks? Or was it something more?

Wini glanced at Lip, worrying her lip between her teeth. She wanted to talk to him, like he mentioned, but he didn't know where either of his parents were and she felt guilty complaining about the issues with her overabundance of parents between her mum and da and William. Plus, she really didn't know how she was feeling at the moment besides upset and sad and confused and she never really explained things well when she was upset anyway. The thought that she would normally owl her mum to ask her advice made her even closer to tears yet again so she just ducked her head and walked on.

 

   

Phillip Donnelly [ Ravenclaw ]
298 Posts  •  17  •  .  •  played by Samm
Re: one foot in front of the other. [winifred]
« Reply #18 on: May 29, 2020, 06:39:56 AM »
Phillip was no stranger when it came to retreating internally, saying nothing, pretending like everything was fine. He was basically a master at this point. He never wanted people to ask him how he was doing or if he was okay. Even though he had no idea what was really happening he was intelligent enough to know that something was entirely off. Winifred was a happy witch, she was always chatty and upbeat, honestly, Phillip wouldn't have been surprised to find out she lived off of sparkles she was so giddy most of the time. It was obvious something had changed, something about that letter had really messed with her and even though he didn't know how to ask her about it he wanted to. He was so curious.

Instead of being a good friend, being like she would have been if the places were switched, Phillip remained silent. He followed her into the cauldron and then into Diagon Alley and said nothing. He wanted to say something, but the words escaped him. He wasn't skilled at this. A few years ago maybe, but he was so far removed from everything social that he was completely lost now. Wini, (Marin by association), Billie, and Aideen were his only friends these days. He didn't know how to ask or how to help her so he didn't say anything.

He followed her past the first of the shops, the silence between them was deafening. Normally he was the one saying nothing, Wini trying to get some sort of reaction out of him. Everything felt unbalanced and he wanted so much to help her. Finally, after so long, he said something. Phillip's Ravenclaw curiosity and his need to know things outweighed his lack of understanding of how to be compassionate and he pried.

"Wini, what's going on?"

Winifred Gwartney [ Hufflepuff ]
1065 Posts  •  17  •  played by Rinn
Re: one foot in front of the other. [winifred]
« Reply #19 on: May 31, 2020, 04:42:50 AM »
The words written so clearly on the parchment kept circling round and round her mind. Wini knew it wasn’t helping. It wasn’t the smart thing to do really, but she couldn’t help it. Every time she tried to think of something else, another hurtful phrase came right back around and sent her into another downward spiral. Sadness, guilt, hurt all swirling together in a hurricane of emotion that she wasn't sure how to handle. If Lip hadn't just showed up, she probably would've shut the door to her room and cried into her pillow, hoping William wouldn't come in and also hoping he would just to comfort her.

Lip's question almost surprised her. She hadn't really expected him to ask again even though a tiny part was grateful for it. She looked up at him, her brows furrowed slightly above her watery brown eyes, biting her lip as it wobbled. But she couldn't quite meet his gaze either so she looked back down to her shoes, stopping and scuffing her shoe on the pavement. "My mum said she didn't want me to come home," she confessed in a rush, her voice full of emotion. She snuck a quick look at him before she reached into her purse and found the letter easily, holding it out to him without looking at it.

It was a little crumpled now, but she imagined the penned words would still be just as clear, just as hurtful. She knew her mum probably didn't mean to hurt her so, but the reaction wasn't something she could curb into something understanding. At least not right now. Her mum's letter was penned neatly, just like always, starting with My Dear Winifred and asking how her time in London was going, never mentioning William by name as her mom had always done. She went on to respond to a few of Wini's questions in her last letter - about the farm, about the family dog Afon and how he was doing after he had sprained his paw last month, about Nadine her childhood friend who had started dating her older brother Aeron, her sister Crystin's upcoming wedding, and how the rest of her siblings were doing.

But the little paragraph that had sent her spinning was the last one. As if it was a tacked on thought, almost carelessly added, although Wini hoped that it wasn't something that had been easy for her mum to send because she was cracking open at the thought. The penned paragraph went on about how it would be better if Wini stayed in London for the rest of the summer, phrased nicely and offering suggestions about the other things she could see and visit now that she had more time, but one thing was clear: her mum was saying that she shouldn't come to the family farm this summer. She had known the past few summers were hard with the tension Griffith radiated and she knew he wasn't very happy with her because she was the product of her mother's infidelity, but she had always thought that if she just gave him time, he might come around. Besides, she was his daughter. She considered Griffith her father, not William even though the latter was very kind.

Wini hugged herself as Lip read the letter and she glanced up at him, worrying her lip and trying to hold back tears. "I think maybe my da.." she swallowed thickly and put voice to the thought that hurt her the most. "..doesn't want me around?"

 

   

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